Blinded

By the title, I meant that many of us, at least people in developed countries, are often so busy that we are blinded; well, at least Singaporeans are. We are so used to getting everything fast, we seemed to think that what we want is always what we get; or put it simply, an entitlement. Have we forgotten how to differentiate entitlement from privileges?

I am guilty of being blinded. In fact, I think I'm being obsessively compulsive. In what way? I'm obsessive about my friends. I wasn't aware of this till today. Before today, I'm constantly in a mood swing because I couldn't get things to go the way I wanted it to. In fact, I was so obsessive with being with my best friends, I had forgotten how to meet new friends. You see, I have the urge to see my buddies and when I am declined, i felt sad. Have I given them enough trust? I think I had, but i feel that the truth is, i hadn't. Being best friends shouldn't be about guessing each other's feelings and thoughts, we should have mutual understanding. I think that my best friends have always considered my feelings but I have never reciprocated. I just keep wanting more when they accede to a certain request of mine. And when I am declined for something, my mood just change. I have been blinded by this for 21 years (maybe only the recent years).

Still I am grateful that I have that few friends who are always with me whenever I needed them the most. THANK YOU.